Mi comida favorito es
Desayuno: un huevo, tostada, y café
Ir a correr a lago de Hefner
Y Ab Ripper X después
Mucho baile Hablar por teléfono con mi amiga desde Granada
Ver El Cartel del canal Telemundo (actuación muy mal, pero divertido)
Ir a la biblioteca
Para estudiar la gramática de español
Té y leyendo los libros con Grace a Panera Bread
Mi libro favorito, Candide, me siempre reír
Cena con mis padres
How are you feeling?
I feel hopeful and optimistic.
What good coping have you done?
I’m trying to rethink. I’ve read all the eating disorder books that Cassie’s given me. I research articles related to “body shaming.” I share these ideas with people that support me.
Not gonna lie, it’s difficult to maintain positive thoughts and to stay away from mainstream body ideals. It’s as if I’m un-doing years of brain washing.
On a brighter note, I have chosen to take care of my body which includes eating right (sort-of) and exercising moderately.
Any substance use or unsafe behavior?
Signs that I still need to improve my diet: I get dizzy sometimes and the bruises on my legs are horrendous (especially after my bicycle accident, but they’re uglier than they normally would be). I still do “body checks” multiple times a day. This includes weighing myself (I avoided the scale today, but last week I weighed myself three times in one day— WHY!?!) and analyzing areas of my body that I’m unhappy with every time I am in front of a large mirror.
Did you complete your commitment?
I committed to never purging again. It’s been over 7 months since I’ve last purged.
Community resource update:
I am seeking a clinician to finally reach recovery.
Dr. Martin Luther King.
Taken from his speech, “Why I oppose the war in Vietnam.”